I have no idea how to be good, but I want to try.

I want to be mean to something or someone. That is a very different statement than I want to mean something to someone.

I need an outlet for my negative energy and karma.

And I don’t want it to be other humans.

The thing is that I have the scary feelings so often. And when I spend time with more people. When I am close to them, I care more about them. And I want to care about them.

But I don’t always do it in a way that makes them feel cared for.

I am scared because I do all of these things that make me a bully.

And I have been running away from it for a very long time.

I have to stop running away.

But I don’t want to hurt people.

This means that I have to change.

And I can change.

Everyone has the ability to grow into something incredible.

I have to figure out my shit.